i love this line from 'my date with a vampire 3'..

even if memories may cease to exist, love will still stay

how true it is.. even if my memories of however fabulous experiences i have cease to exist, i'll still remember the feeling of everything that has happened.. sometimes i look around me, trying to find back the great old times.. relentlessly searching for the same old feeling. but i can't. maybe its a sign. maybe its telling me to let go of the past and search for new memories. create new feelings and experience it all again.

i talked to vera yesterday about certain stuff.. it has certainly stirred some emotions in me. what she is experiencing now transports me back to the very day rejection took place. she said she likes to harbour on bad memories. indeed bad memories are hard to forget. they cling on to you and won't leave. i won't say that i have totally forgotten about what happened months ago. they still remain in my mind. though muffled but still clear. but now, i rather let the happy memories make me happy than the sad ones.

i feel like i can sense a change in me. after last week, i feel like a totally new person. i start to see new perspectives. the old me has never been so considerate to people before. funnily, i can't smile out of a sudden. the constant rain probably reminded me of myself. the glumness, the dark clouds, the flooding streets. i feel an urge to just go and make myself drenched by rain. maybe that can wash away some remnants of depression in me..

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my dearest jas!
















vera with jas. they look great in this pic =)
















my bestest girlfriends! wee!








i love my girls.. <3
they make my grey skies blue,
they make my sour face brim with the world's greatest smile.
they make my broken heart mend.
they make me laugh at the lamest jokes even though its not funny.
they make me who i am.

i'll never let go of what's dearest to me..